Case Close: I Quit!

Grabe si God, when I’ve given up on helping out others, when I’ve losed my will to encourage others.. here comes another soul who needs help… who need a friend… who wants to know God…

It’s been a rough and a bumpy ride for me during the past 3 weeks… I’m helping a friend, helping a friend, and helping a friend hehehe… in short madami binigay na responsibility sa akin si God… it even came to a point na I might lose a friendship dahil di kami nagkaintindihan nung isang friend ko… coz na-burnout na talaga ako.. and i’m losing my patience then.. I even cried for my friend… kasi I know na hes’ worthy to be a friend talaga… one of my trusted friends sa church… just last week lang… medyo nabatrip ulit ako dun hehehe… kaya sabi ko.. i’m gonna stop helping other people na… i don’t wanna be involved na din and encourage them as well…

But after 10 mins (i think?) I got a text message from another friend, and this time yung dinidisciple ko na… after 2 weeks of no communication bigla sya nagparamdam… telling na may problem sya lately… and it affects daw yung walk nya with God… hmmmm.. Grabe, i got so convicted then.. kasi when I decided to stop na here comes another one that who needs help… it’s like God is telling to me ‘John Paul, be more patient, I’m giving you another responsibility, another task… never stop believing and don’t you ever neglect your duty’ at syempre mismo sa akin yun… tama talaga sa akin yun…

Kuya Jam told me to share this story sa small group later that day… and surprisingly he pulled out something sa shinare ko… he told us na we have no right to give, we have no right to stop advancing God’s kingdom through helping others… coz Jesus didn’t… Jesus died for us… Jesus fulfilled His duty…

From which I definitely agree with… I mean if God give up on us what do you think na mangyayari today? Same as sa atin… if we give up on those people who needs help… those people whom we loved… those people who doesn’t know God yet… useless lang yung ginawang sacrifice ni Jesus for us…

Now, I’m making a bold decision na I’ll just continue on fulfilling my duty, my responsibility, as a God’s servant… I know he wanted me to be like this… and all I have to do is to obey and follow his will for me… after all, it’s all about God, it’s all about His will for me….

Cased Closed: I Quit!

Now, I’m gonna continue this race…  zoooommmmmmmm……

(posted April 15, 2008)